Friday, June 12, 2009

Pomp, Circumstance & Anxiety

Well tomorrow is a big day for me. It's my commencement ceremony. I'll be graduating with my Associates Degree in Allied Health Technology. As many of you may know I suffer from social anxiety disorder, so long ceremony, sitting with strangers has made me a wreck. Full blown panic attacks for the last 2 days. *sigh*

My parents are hosting a dinner beforehand and my in-laws, & our friends - ourPastor & his wife will be there also. I'm not sure why I decided to "walk", except I think it's important for my teenage boys to see me take that walk & finish this properly.

Prayers & good wishes are appreciated! Hopefully I'll be back to my bloggy self & back to visiting all of your blogs, soon.

20 comments:

Joy said...

Pam, I'd be anxious too - no wonder you've been kind of quiet lately. But I send BIG kudos your way for going through with the ceremony! I agree that it's so important for your boys to watch you accept your diploma. They're bound to be soooo proud of their mom.

Florida Sue said...

I just stumbled across your blog, and I am happy to meet you. I suffer from PTSD and I know exactly how you are feeling. Congratulations on your big day. You are making wonderful memories for your family tomorrow, and I wish you well. You can do it.

Cheers!
Sue.

KC Mom said...

I am really proud of you. I hope the event will go okay for you.

sAm said...

CONGRATULATIONS!! I agree - I think it important to walk and show your sons what all the sacrifices were for. Hopefully you'll be ok during the ceremony - just remember you EARNED this and deserve it!

Diane said...

i am so effing proud of you!!! i know what a panic attack feels like. but i know you can TOTALLY do this! do it for your boys! they are going to be so proud of you!!!!!!!!!

congrats!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

{hugs!!!}

Kat said...

Oh Pam we are all so proud of you. I know the boys will be equally proud as you accept your diploma.

I don't know, so I'm only guessing, but maybe if you give yourself something to think about besides the people around, maybe that would help. Might sound silly but maybe a medium (or small) binder clip that you can put on your finger that would draw your attention there instead of the panic your feeling because of others around? Or some of those non-elastic hair tie things on your wrist that you can "pluck". As I said I don't know, just throwing it out there in the hope that it might help?

No matter what - we are all proud of you for 1) the accomplishment of graduating and 2) the steps you are taking to walk and receive your diploma and show your boys that you and they can accomplish ANYTHING they put their mind to!

Love ya!

~3 Sides of Crazy~ said...

Congratulations! How awesome. I hope it is all you need it to be!

Rachael said...

Congratulations on your awesome achievement! That is so wonderful. Good luck with the ceremony - you will be okay. You better post pictures!

Doodles said...

Congrats... you boys will be very proud of you for facing your fears and getting your diploma.

Denise @ Sunflowers, Chocolate and Little Boys said...

Congrats! Im proud of you and your accomplishment. Seriously, I have gone back to college so many times and never finished. So today your my hero!! Hang in there for the ceremony, you will be thankful after it is all done.

blueviolet said...

I think it's just wonderful that you're taking the walk. You deserve to take that walk!

Thanks for the welcome! I'm glad to be back!

Sarah said...

My Aunt is Manic Depressive and has extreme social anxiety coupled with paranoia. She has had a hard time finding and keeping a job so I know how hard this can be. Deep breaths and finish line in sight! Good job!

Tina said...

wow i hope the graduation goes well for you. congrats

He And Me + 3 said...

Congratulations Mimi...that is so awesome!
How cool for you to walk. I think that is very brave. I didn't walk when I graduated college back in 1994. I regret that decision now.
Glad you are doing this.
Hugs and prayers,
Mimi

meandtheblueskies said...

Congratulations on your graduation. I'm sure everything went wonderfully! Stoping by from SITS. If you get a chance, stop by my blog and enter my one year anniversary contest.

heidi said...

Congratulations, Pam! What an accomplishment to be proud of. :-)

AB HOME INTERIORS said...

Well it's now Sunday. The good news is, it's all OVER with. The bad news is you still haven't updated the blog The ceremony went....

Alicia, The Snowflake said...

Oh wow! That's so exciting! I hope you had a great day!

lagirl said...

WAY TO GO, GIRL!!
I've been out of town so am just now seeing this post. Sure hope all went well with the ceremony. I have the same issues, and now I've been called to Jury Duty. Don't know what I'm gonna do. It's awful, isn't it?!

robin said...

Oh my goodness! What exciting news! Congratulations. What a huge accomplishment. Try to enjoy it! :)