Thursday, September 29, 2011

Someone's Daddy

Someones daddy may have expected a Mark David, but came through with flying colors when Pamela Cathleen showed up.

7/7/1968, my first birthday party
Someone's daddy never complained when he was working more than one job to get someone the things that she thought she needed.

After ice skating January, 1970
Someone may have put up with more mouth & sass than should be tolerated, but always loved her anyway.

"Shoeland", Holland, Michigan, August, 1973
Someone's daddy may not say I love you often, but shows it in many little ways.

With dad at my wedding to Chris, 8/29/03
Someone's having a birthday today & I'm proud that he's this someone's daddy.

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Depression Hurts

If you're a reader of Screaming Mimi you probably know that I suffer from Bi-polar disorder type II.  If you're interested in reading about bipolar type II you can see my old post here.

There's a Cymbalta commercial that comes on TV and the theme is Depression Hurts.  I hate seeing that commercial.

Being trapped in your own head, that is constantly telling you how worthless you are and how much you can't do gets tiring.  Fast.

Some days it takes me to the point where I'm unable to function to do even the smallest things like making dinner for my family or unloading the dishwasher. 

The chemicals in my brain are different from the norm, it takes me longer to get motivated to do things, if I can do them at all.  Leaving the house for any social interaction is hard and actually impossible at times.  When taking Oskar for a walk is too daunting for me, I know that I'm having a rough patch.  Hello, rough patch.

I got up this morning and went to see my mom.  I didn't do any of my other errands, but I did the most important one and enjoyed spending some time with her, seeing some of the things that my grandmother had saved and reading a letter from my mom's grandpa. 

As always I'm writing this (somewhat disjointed) post in an ongoing effort to help people understand bipolar, depression, & mania.  We're not crazy, we're not lazy, we're hurting and if we're lucky we know that this episode will pass, hopefully sooner rather than later.

Thursday, September 8, 2011

BlogHer Just Keeps Giving

Some of you may remember that before my trip to BlogPaws, I went to BlogHer in San Diego.  Proctor & Gamble is a big sponsor of BlogHer & instead of giving out a lot of swag at the conference, they sent a box to bloggers who registered.

Well my box came today & let me say I was NOT disappointed.  BlogHer is full of take home swag, in fact it's customary to bring a whole seperate suitcase just to transport all of your goodies home.  Some pens from this company, re-usuable shopping bags, lunch coolers, nice things like that & some even nicer.

Well P&G just blew everyone out of the water.  FedEx just delivered this box to my house.

Full sized, new products from lines we are all familiar with like Tide, Swiffer, Oil of Olay & more.  Just look.

Now I was sponsored by the pet care division of Proctor & Gamble to go to BlogHer, but that's not why I received this box.  Every blogger who registered got a box like this one.  I'm off to sort through all of this fun new stuff & hope I can get a sponsor again next year for BlogHer!

Wednesday, September 7, 2011


A neighbor rode by on her bike & this is what went through my head.

I'm going to assume most of us have moments of thinking like that, right?

Monday, September 5, 2011

BlogPaws - The Day Before

I flew into the BlogPaws conference on Wednesday, a full day before the conference began so I could do some sightseeing.  To read about my trip into DC click over to Pet Blogs United.

Once in the city I headed to the National Museum of American History.  I only got a few shots, because my camera batteries died before I was even half way through.  Of course I packed more batteries, but of course I left them in my hotel room!

Here's the Washington Monument on one side of me,

And the Capitol Building on the other.

At the museum I had a quick lunch & then headed to see all of the exhibits.  My pictures aren't great, but Julia Childs kitchen was so perfect & organized & detailed exactly the way she left it.  I remember growing up and watching her cook from that kitchen on many of her shows.

Here's a Dumbo Ride from a Disney Theme park.  I can't remember if it was Disney World or Disney Land.

Here's the first Kermit the Frog muppet from the Sam & Friends Show.  We all know it morphed into Sesame Street!  I was 2 in 1969 when it started, so I watched it my whole childhood & loved re-watching with my kids.

These were the latest things they had in in the popular entertainment section, Eddie Van Halen's guitar from the 1984 record, one of Tony Hawk's skateboards & that simple copper color bathing suit that lit Farrah Fawcett on fire.  Extra cool points if your dad or brother had that poster hanging up in your home!

Michael Jackson's glove & Edith & Archie Bunker's chairs are pictures that didn't turn out and by the time I got to my favorite part, the inaguration ballgowns of the first ladies, my camera was totally dead.  Perfect blogger timing.....

The rest of my posts about BlogPaws I'll post on Pet Blog's United or Oskar's Blog, so you can check those periodically if you're interested, but I won't bore the rest of you!

Have a great Labor Day evening!

Sunday, September 4, 2011

Project 365 - Week 36

Here's a look at my world straight out of the camera.

Sunday 8/28 - Saturday 9/3


My mom's dog Buster with one of her quilts in progress.  Nothing's better than having a mother for a quilter as you will see later in this post.


A cool grasshopper that Chris caught on our front window.


Keds that my mom gave me.  They were my grandmother's.  I'll never be able to fill her shoes.  Ever.  I'm not putting myself down, just stating one of those facts.  They just don't make 'em like her anymore.


John marked up the Schwan's catalog with stuff he'd like to get.  I wonder if it's worth the money.  I find myself not making too many meals for the family because unlike before gastroparesis when I used to love to cook, now I hate the whole process.  That's guilt inducing.


The Sleep Number Bed people sent me a True Silver Blanket to review over on Pet Blogs United.  The pure silver fibers naturally repel bacteria, dust and odors, making it a great blanket to use when pets share your bed with you.


Oskar trying out the True Silver Blanket!


Chris & I finally decided to pull out the yo-yo bed cover my mom made for us years ago.  Each circle was cut & sewn by her.  I'll post more about this in a day or two.

I hope you all have a wonderful weekend.  To see the other Project 365 players, click over to Sara's blog.

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