This is exactly how I feel today:
Mania: The fast ideas start coming too fast and there are far too many ... overwhelming confusion replaces clarity ... you stop keeping up with it … memory goes. Infectious humor ceases to amuse. Your friends become frightened ... everything is now against the grain ... you are irritable, angry, frightened, uncontrollable, and trapped. Source
I'm not posting this for sympathy, all though prayers and good wishes are appreciated. I'm posting so that more people can understand the struggle that bipolar, in my case type II, can bring.
I am not crazy, my brain chemistry is wrong and it makes me feel crazy, scared, out of control. Don't be afraid of people with mental illness, be their friend.