Sunday, March 27, 2011

Mania, The Other Side Of Bipolar

This is exactly how I feel today:

Mania: The fast ideas start coming too fast and there are far too many ... overwhelming confusion replaces clarity ... you stop keeping up with it … memory goes. Infectious humor ceases to amuse. Your friends become frightened ... everything is now against the grain ... you are irritable, angry, frightened, uncontrollable, and trapped. Source

I'm not posting this for sympathy, all though prayers and good wishes are appreciated.  I'm posting so that more people can understand the struggle that bipolar, in my case type II, can bring. 

I am not crazy, my brain chemistry is wrong and it makes me feel crazy, scared, out of control.  Don't be afraid of people with mental illness, be their friend.

14 comments:

Queenie Jeannie said...

Oh honey! You know I am, and always will be, your friend!!! Big hugs, warm thoughts and gobs of prayers. We all struggle in our own way, and it's really tough.

But you've got me, Babe!

sara said...

((hugs))) coming your way! And prayers too!

The Cyber Hermit said...

Hugs and prayers as well...thanks for being willing to post about things like this.

blueviolet said...

You will always be my friend! Big hugs!

Amy said...

I here as your friend..

The Bug said...

Thanks for posting the real stuff behind the label - if we don't know what's what, then how can we really know you?

Furry Bottoms said...

Bipolar is hell, but you're still human, regardless of what anyone else thinks. Personally... I feel it can be a challenge, but it is always always always a challenge I don't mind being confronted with. It makes the friends I have with bipolar just much more interesting and rewarding.

Hang in there, Mimi!

jamfiescreations1 said...

I just love this post. I suffer from Bipolar II myself. All those feelings you mentioned are so true. Sometimes it's hard, when the Bipolar takes over. That is when I pray for the feelings to go away. I will be praying for you.

Mary O

slommler said...

I am truly a friend and a Bipolar sufferer too!! You have my prayers for sure!!
I know all too well how tough it can be!
Hugs
SueAnn

Joy said...

Amen lady. Praying for you to feel better soon.

Amy said...

(((Mimi))) I'm your friend. Feel better.

Debby@Just Breathe said...

I don't personally know bipolar but I know depression and I know my daughters mind with OCD/BDD.
Keeping you in my prayers. ((HUGS))

Emily said...

I am so sorry you are feeling this way and you are definitely in my prayers. Sending you a (((BIG HUG)))!

bigguysmama said...

Let's just say I love someone who has something. She refuses to be tested, but I love her. I cling to what I can even tho she hasn't liked or loved me for years.

You are loved NO matter what!

~Meems