Saturday, November 6, 2010

Hurting People Hurts

I had a blog post up earlier that hurt some people who are very, very important to me.

My insecurities, bi-polar, and a simple misunderstanding made for an ugly place in my brain and heart.

The friends I hurt are ones that I have walked through fire with and would do so again in a heart beat.

Mental illness lets the devil into your head, telling you that no one wants you, no one likes you & no one loves you.  Sometimes I forget that people actually read these little posts I write, and vent away, not considering possible consequences by those who read them.

To those I hurt, I'm sorry...truly. 

I'm lost, I'm lonely and now I feel horrible about my actions.  Please include me in your prayers today

12 comments:

Alicia, The Snowflake said...

Oh my friend, it happens to all of us. We all take things the wrong way and blow them out of preportion. We all hurt people. It's part of being human. I pray peace in your heart today. And may you feel God's love...the love that covers a multitude of sins.

Love ya girl!

Joy said...

Well honey I don't know what you said but please don't beat yourself up about it. xoxoxo

Dixie Mom said...

Hang in there. I've done that a time or two early on in my blogging. But I learned to be a little more careful about what I say.

Rebecca Jo said...

But you know what - there is nothing wrong with what you said... you were hurt... nothing wrong with putting words to your hurt! And maybe that's a good thing that others read it & realized that you did get hurt - probably unknowingly & not on purpose - so in the end, some healing for EVERYONE can happen.

Dont get down ... this is a good thing!

Sending you even MORE HUGS! :)

Amy said...

(((Mimi))), hang in there. Writing our hearts is hard. Don't beat yourself up.

EmptyNester said...

It happens. All you can be is sorry, and you are SO no dwelling on it or else you'll be letting it bring you down. Every single one of us, whether we want to admit it or not, makes mistakes. Our friends understand and forgive us!

STILLMAGNOLIA said...

My dear friend, I don't know what you said...but we all say things that are hurtful from time to time....please don't beat yourself up over this. You are a precious person....think on the good. XXOO, K

bigguysmama said...

Darlin' first of all, I want you to know I dig you! Secondly, not only are you NOT the first, you won't be the LAST to write something on your blog or say in real life that hurts someone.

We are sinners in need of a Savior. We aren't perfect and I don't want you beating yourself up over this.

My prayer is that whomever you hurt will come to you and forgive you for what was said. That you can work it out and find some peace about it.

You are precious, even with mental illness, and I don't want you to forget that!

♥ Meems

Queenie Jeannie said...

Hey Sweetie!

I've been away and must have missed whatever was up, as I don't see anything "bad" posted now. I'm so sorry you are hurting and that something disturbing went on. It would be nice if we could just let it all hang out on our blogs without people judging us and getting their panties all in a twist over it.

You KNOW that you aren't really alone and that tons & tons & tons of people love you and care about you!!!! It's only 5am for you now, but I'll give you a call later this morning.

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hang in there Sweetie!!!

slommler said...

Please don't beat yourself up. Good friend always understand. At least they should! You have a very kind and loving heart. It is so easy to miss speak, especially on our blogs. But this is your blog and you should feel free to vent. The whole point is not to feel fear...apologize if you think you must and then move on...forward and upward!!!
You have my prayers as well!!
Hugs
SueAnn

Emily said...

I'm not sure what this is all about Pam but please know that you are loved, at least by me. We have all said and done things in our lives that have negatively affected others whether we meant to or not. You have apologized and now it is up to the other people to forgive or not. Don't beat yourself up over it, forgive yourself for being human and move on. Those who love you have already forgiven and forgotten!!!!

Martha Ruth said...

It's so hard to know what to write sometimes, but I still subscribe to the old fashioned theory that honesty is the best policy. I'd much rather someone be honest with me than to have them "pretend" that everything was just hunky dory. At least I can address it if I need to. (or want to)

Moving forward isn't always easy but it's the best path to take. I'm sure that it probably wasn't as bad as you think it might have been. It usually isn't.

We're all here for you my dear. You are loved.

Hugs and Blessings,
Martha